I do not know what to write as a post title so I guess this is gonna go title-less. If you're reading this it must mean you're pretty special because my blog is kind of like a sacred place. Like a diary but less private info about me. So please don't go casting my link around to reel everyone in here. I type what I feel here, and right now I'm feelin a little clueless (?)

I hope you are happy with yourself. I have yet to rid of this displeased feeling towards you for you deciding to act like non of what happened, ever happened but suit yourself, I have lost all my trust in you. I see you don't respect me nor our friendship so whatever. Good luck with her (not really) but yeah.

The number of days before PMR arrives are now in double digits. We have about almost a month and a week to study, and I am still struggling with Sejarah & Geografi.

Sigh.

Aside from all those unhappy stuff I tend to think a little too much about, I am actually having a pretty decent life right now. Good terms with my family, thankful for my friends because I've finally decide to swallow the fact that I shouldn't give two thoughts about the people who don't do the same. Though I am still questioning some people. I'm sure you can relate. Sometimes I feel like we're really best friends and you were meant to be in my life for long term, sometimes I feel like we're just friends because it's convenient, but sometimes it feels like you're just nothing but a stranger I say hi to in school. Maybe you can't relate but I hope someone out there does.

But to you, my bestfriend/friend/stranger, you might be reading this right now because there would probably come a period again where I feel like you're my best friend and surrender you the link to this blog, mind giving me some clarity as to what we really are?

Trials? What?

I know I promised myself I'd visit here more often but with everything going on who's got the time? Let me update you about a couple of stuff,

1. Before I knew it time flew by and I am currently sitting for my Trial exams for PMR
2. I wasn't close to prepared for my trials
3. It's 1:26 am and Science is tomorrow and I'm not even half done
4. PMR is in 42 days

Yay life!

Going on, I am feeling an immense amount of regret for not preparing earlier. I was even given such fortune to have my trials after the Raya Holidays when other schools had theirs before and yet, I only chose to begin studying on the second week. When will I ever learn? well that would be right now because I promised myself I'd study harder than I ever had because I already feel terrible enough and it's just Trials let alone PMR. I WANT TO JUMP OF A BUILDING RIGHT NOW THIS HELPLESS FEELING OF LAST MINUTE CRAMMING. Sigh, but what I'm most worried about is how I'm not worried about Sejarah and Geografi at all. Anyone have any advice to offer? I literally can't stand BM based subjects. KH is the only subject in BM I have potential to do well in, not sure why but I just can. Sigh. The thought of freedom once this is all done with. All night anime marathons to catch up on everything I've missed and plus I get to read the books I purchased from a book fair recently I've been dying to read.